jeudi 17 août 2017

People Can Change

I think it’s imperative that in order to believe in a better tomorrow, you must believe that people can change (the growing challenge now in hoping the future is better). Just thinking about my own journey, I used to:
  • be racist making fun of other races -- now, though not perfectly, I give utmost respect to every culture especially those disenfranchised;
  • protest affirmative action – now I support it;
  • think conservatives were idiots – now I feel genuine conservatives offer valuable input to society (while self-identified liberals hold conservative beliefs without knowing);
  • be into politics in order to look down on others – then I was apathetic – and now I’m into it for the pursuit of equity;
  • be a skeptical atheist – now I’m an enthusiastic Protestant;
  • resent learning Chinese – now I’m committed to getting it;
  • think myself the victim – now I’m aware more and more of pain I’ve caused people in the past.
I’m sure people will not like all these changes, but the fact is I’m different from my past self. Satan loves nothing better than for us to give into labeling and caricaturizing each other, where in reality we’re all complex, ever-morphing onions.

Someone once said beliefs can be changed provided 1) someone is intellectually convinced, 2) emotionally stirred, and 3) given the social space to practice and live out those beliefs. May we strive to minister good holistically.

lundi 17 juillet 2017

Embarrassing Nostalgia


As my parents are cleaning up their house in preparing to move to their dream home (just down the street lol), my sister forwards me this little piece of history.

I really resented this backpack. The “Victory U.S.A.” clearly shows this wasn’t made in the USA. I simply didn’t have the social tools during my childhood to deflect the insecurity.

Maybe it’s a loss that my kid will not go through this degree of socio-cultural tension, that maybe he’ll lose the opportunity to empathize with the awkward/misfit. Or it’s too early to say.

lundi 22 mai 2017

Institutional Forgiveness

I wonder how people wronged by systemic injustice learn to forgive those oppressors, if they do. Like what should they do: seek resolution with the leader(s) of those guilty associations? Are the members of the group also held culpable? Make the reconciliation private, or announce publicly for the benefit of a group of victims?

Though terrible in scope and degree of destruction, institutional wrongdoing is biblically accounted for: the fall of humanity logically necessitates the fall of institutions. This simple fact is important but not always fully recognized.

So what of forgiving these institutions? Granted, different situations will require different approaches. Putting my counseling hat on, an ideal way would be personal and face-to-face, all parties acknowledging the fault committed and the appropriate restitution. This way, the victim(s)’s hearts aren’t prolongingly hardened against the one-dimensional oppressor in their mind. Indeed, the temptation to objectify institutions into cold caricatures explains why activism, with all its merits and drawbacks, can be so impassioned.

But wrongs need to be made public and acknowledged, right? Companies or countries need to be genuinely grieved by their actions! I don’t think this point can be overstated. Special committees and tribunals an apology does not make. Germany enjoys a reputation for being a leading, liberal democracy with most of its citizens deeply remorseful of WWII. In contrast, public opinions from Japanese citizens and their leaders don’t seem to display this remorse, and so would-be partners in the region will always hold this grudge.

What about suffering that is so complex and multifaceted? Who apologizes for the 2008 financial crisis? Partial apologies have been submitted by lenders, Fannie, Freddie, Congress, and Greenspan, but the blame really gets distributed widely, and so does the lingering suffering. And when the restitution consists of propping up powerful multinational companies instead of consumer-friendly mortgage relief policies (not that that was completely wrong but the optics weren’t good), one easily sees why trust and confidence in our institutions are at a record-low.

Going back to my original questions of how to reconcile/vindicate (the mechanics)…that’s intimidating in itself. There’s the actual harm inflicted, but then seeking justice creates another burden. Oppressed people don’t have the capital or leverage to fight their case effectively; they can’t afford to split time being an activist/self-lawyer and supporting themselves. My head hurts, but there appears to be no shortage of need for prayer.

EDIT: I just remembered my main impetus for writing this came from trying to understand why any black person would want to be in my denomination given the extremely racist origins (background information). That goes for a lot of things..public housing, police and criminal justice, education, media and entertainment, the list goes on and on… and I wonder just how they go on living normal lives when everything is perpetual PTSD. The courage of black people astounds me.

lundi 20 mars 2017

Backhand comments from work


“So when do you actually plan on remediating this?”

“We’re having trouble scoping this because we need to find an area where there are no known problems.”

“Are you guys planning on walking at this pace for the remainder of the trip? I’m asking because I may need to go faster.”

mardi 7 mars 2017

for the nostalgia

*writing while listening to La La Land, the ostensible nostalgia movie*
Strictly my own opinions --

Childhood bands that have gotten bad

  • Relient K: infectious riffs turned vanilla riffs
  • Linkin Park: stopped incorporating hip-hop sampling, so the energy and edginess is lost. Now very poopy
  • Anberlin: got too new-age-y
  • Flyleaf: I was borderline on this, but losing the lead singer will do it
  • ONE OK ROCK: western-style sound engineering forced the drummer to overcompensate with more high hat over increased bass. Messy now, and overall sold out
  • So-so in descending order Rise Against, The Killers, Starship Cobra
Bands that stopped in time before they got bad

  • System of a Down
  • Mae
  • Daphne Loves Derby
  • The Academy Is..
  • Last Winter: it's a newer band, I know, but they put out good albums then stopped. Same with Search the City

Bands that stayed good

  • Switchfoot
  • Fall Out Boy
  • Muse
  • Mutemath
  • Maroon 5: arguably
  • Rise Against: changed my mind while writing
  • The All-American Rejects: surprisingly
  • John Mayer: doesn't count as a band, but much timeless
What do you guys think? Any bands I missed?

dimanche 22 janvier 2017

祝福


主,感谢你赐给我们儿子, 感谢你的恩典满足了他初生几日的需求。初生的这些天里,他带了欢乐,也时儿让我们焦虑和当心,不知所措。他是奇妙的礼物, 我们将尽职尽责好好带大培养他


当然, 我对他有不凡但又现实的梦想。我希望他善良,希望他爱神和他的同伴邻居,我祈盼他做大丈夫并能收留异乡人


在你的引导下,请帮助 Lucy和我,让我们庆祝所有的突破,祈祷去战胜困难。帮我们给他选个中文名子。亲属们都说一家人全部都上调了一级, 而我渴望的则是基督被最尊崇