spoiled

A lot of times the portraits of grace that are (rightly) elevated are those where through trial and hardship, someone is able to lean on God and find comfort and persevere.

My experience has been not one of suffering but of regular distractions. I have loved moving back to Maryland, then I got consumed with being a new parent, and arguably got more consumed by getting my dream job.

In each case I let that thing be my identity and worth. Doing so didn't lead to great outcomes. I turn back to God only after being burnt out and disappointed. I didn’t maintain faithful discipleship nor wanted to.

God is very sweet to me in his grace and welcoming. He does not change.